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October 15, 2007

TaskFreak!

Filed under: Personal — cec @ 7:28 pm

About a year ago, I mentioned installing Tracks a “Getting Things Done” application written in RubyOnRails. That was great when I had my always online desktop at the office. I could run a RoR app without a problem. Unfortunately, since I’ve left the university, I don’t have a computer I leave on all the time and my ISP doesn’t offer Rails. I started feeling the need for some sort of online task tracker, so I looked around for things that run on my ISP. Last night I found and installed gtd-php.

Unfortunately, gtd-php doesn’t seem to be very actively developed (last release in 2006) and it’s overly complicated. Today I looked around and found TaskFreak! It seems to be actively under development and easy to use. I’ve installed it and it seems to be what I need.

If you’re looking for a GTD list keeping application written in php, check it out.

October 2, 2007

Left or right brain?

Filed under: Personal — cec @ 11:17 am

etselec, suggested I take the Brainworks Left/Right Brain Test. Results below:

Auditory : 23%
Visual : 76%
Left : 52%
Right : 47%

Full details:

you exhibit an even balance between left- and right- hemisphere dominance and a slight preference for visual over auditory processing. With a score this balanced, it is likely that you would have slightly different results each time you complete this self-assessment quiz.

You are a well-rounded person, distinctly individualistic and artistic, an active and multidimensional learner. At the same time, you are logical and disciplined, can operate well within an organization, and are sensitive towards others without losing objectivity. You are organized and goal-directed. Although a “thinking” individual, you “take in” entire situations readily and can act on intuition.

You sometimes tend to vacillate in your learning styles. Learning might take you longer than someone of equal intellect, but you will tend to be more thorough and retain the material longer than those other individuals. You will alternate between logic and impulse. This vacillation will not normally be intentional or deliberate, so you may experience anxiety in situations where you are not certain which aspect of yourself will be called on.

With a slight preference for visual processing, you tend to be encompassing in your perceptions, process along multidimensional paths and be active in your attacking of situations or learning.

Overall, you should feel content with your life and yourself. You are, perhaps, a little too critical of yourself — and of others — while maintaining an “openness” which tempers that tendency. Indecisiveness is a problem and your creativity may not be in keeping with your potential. Being a pragmatist, you downplay this aspect of yourself and focus on the more immediate, obvious and the more functional.

I was asked if I agreed with the results. It’s probably best to say that I don’t disagree. Overall, I think that it’s accurate, but there some things that it just can’t capture, like life history, overall intelligence, etc. But, yeah, I don’t disagree that I’m fairly evenly balanced between left and right brain and that I’m more of a visual than auditory thinker/learner.

September 17, 2007

are there no good ISPs?

Filed under: Personal,Technical — cec @ 7:19 pm

I’m starting to think that there aren’t any good Internet service providers.  hsarik had troubles with Rimu Hosting.  My own ISP seems to be far more focused on (their own version of) security than on usability.  At work we’ve been using Pair.  I’ve been pretty happy with them until this afternoon around 5pm when our project went dead while we had some 50 people using it.

When we first developed the project, Pair was using php4 (yeah, I know – it’s my own fault for using php 🙂 ).  Fortunately, they also provided phpwrap to allow cgi access.  Okay, that’s not great, but it at least let our project which required php5 go live.  Sometime recently, they made the default php5 without phpwrap.  If I had known, well great – but I didn’t see any mention of it. Today, right after I went home they broke phpwrap.  Easy enough to fix, but still irritating.

August 16, 2007

power management and Linux

Filed under: Personal,Technical — cec @ 8:12 pm

From skvidal.

If you haven’t seen powertop yet, you’ve got to look into it.  Arjan van de Ven, one of the linux kernel hackers and an employee of Intel, released powertop back in May.  What is powertop?  Think of the Unix “top,” but monitoring power, not CPU, usage.  It tells you how long you are spending in different CPU states, how long at different CPU frequencies, what is waking up the CPU most frequently, and best of all, it makes recommendations for saving power.

Powertop has already identified a number of issues in various software packages and these problems are now being addressed.  In my personal case, I found that powertop didn’t help much since I was running an old kernel on an old distribution (FC4 – I know, I know).  So I upgraded my laptop to FC7.  Before the upgrade, I got about 2 – 2.5 hours on battery.  With the upgrade and following the recommendations, I can now get 3.5 hours!

very cool.

notes from a transition

Filed under: Personal,University Life — cec @ 7:59 pm

It’s been a bit strange changing jobs.  My former responsibilities as the security officer for a university are so different from what I’m doing now.  A few idle thoughts:

  • Life at the university, particularly for management, is entirely interrupt driven.  Between the phone calls, urgent emails and meetings, I seldom had time to stop and think.  Unfortunately, that meant that a lot of work was done at home.  At the new place, work is nowhere near as disruptive.  I’m in the office for eight hours and I get eight hours worth of work done.  No meetings.  No phone calls.  Few emails – none urgent.  The change has been a little jarring.  The biggest advantage is that I’m not trying to actually do all of my work at the end of the day, so I’m leaving and getting home at a reasonable time.
  • The university structures its benefits to the advantage of the highest paid.  Everyone has to pay for a share of their health insurance.  The 403b, which is incredible, pays progressively more for people at the high end of the pay scale.  IIRC, if you put in 3%, they put in ~8% for the first $50k of salary and then ~13% for anything above that – assuming that you are in the better paid category of staff.  Hourly employees receive less contribution and have a 5 year vesting period.  At the new place, they cap at 4% of your salary, so it’s nowhere near as much in retirement.  However, they also pay full health and dental.  The upshot is that everyone receives health benefits, regardless of income.  Retirement benefits which are typically only used by people at the high end of the income scale are less generous.  Overall, a far more equitable system.
  • I’m finding that I’m much more relaxed.  I am responsible for the implementation of a decent sized project, but because it’s only one project, there is much less stress and I’m not working in the evenings.  Which gives me time to find great things online.  Like the following from Adlai Stevenson in the 1950s:  “via ovicipitum dura est”  or “the way of the eggheads is hard.”

August 11, 2007

fini

Filed under: Personal,University Life — cec @ 11:29 pm

Done. Finished. That’s all she wrote. Yesterday was my last day at the university.

Sometime before I left, I started thinking about what, if anything, I wanted to leave on my whiteboard. The obvious came to mind: “So long and thanks for all the fish.” But that’s a little too obvious. My next thought was to crib a few lines from Jonathan Coulton:

I fear nothing

Anymore

See you all in hell

But I figured that wouldn’t be appreciated. Instead, I focused on finishing up some last minute projects and before I knew it, I had to leave to run an errand before the farewell party. I left the hard drive wipers erasing my laptop and desktop, grabbed my keys, procurement card, parking pass, prox card and id card.  All of which I left with the finance and administrative folks. When the door closed behind me, I knew that I couldn’t get back in the building and that the lightness I felt came from more than the lack of a laptop in my bag.

It really didn’t matter what I put on the whiteboard – I’m done.

p.s. to everyone that could make it to the party, Thanks! it was great. to those that couldn’t, i’m sorry i missed you. folks can email me at <my last name> (at) fenris (dot) org or at <first>.<last> (at) gmail (dot) com.

July 23, 2007

Too much to do, not enough time or motivation

Filed under: Personal — cec @ 3:24 pm

I’ve got about three weeks to go. Unfortunately, my list of projects or things to get done seems to be growing longer, not shorter and I’m losing my motivation :-/

I think the hardest thing about leaving is resisting the urge to tell people the truth about what I think of their ideas, or their meetings, or the organization in general. Resisting that urge gets harder every day, even though I know that it would be entirely pointless. It might make me feel better to vent for a bit, but what would it accomplish? I would aggravate some people off, burn some bridges and no one would actually listen to what I was saying – no matter how well reasoned or explained.

I guess I’ve always wanted to do the whole “speak truth to power” thing. But in the end, speaking truth to power is vanity. Power is seldom interested in hearing truth. It is only interested in hearing statements supporting its ideas and positions. So, you wind up irritating a lot of people and nothing changes. Not exactly a win for anyone.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying I think it will be different or better elsewhere – this feels like a universal condition. I’m just justifying to myself why I haven’t called anyone out for idiocy.

July 10, 2007

New job

Filed under: Personal,University Life — cec @ 8:17 pm

Well, it’s official now.  I’m leaving the university to go work for a private company – my last day will be August 10th which gives me all of a 4 day weekend before starting full time for the new place.  FWIW, I’m definitely looking forward to the change.  I’ve been in my current job for about 6.5 years and in the tradition of my family, that means that I’ve been doing the same thing a year and a half too long.

The work at the new place is completely different than the job I have now, but in a sense it’s a return to something familiar.  The company does R&D work, well really more R than D on a number of grants, contracts, etc.  It feels a lot like a big (and more productive) graduate office.  It’s a good chance to put my PhD back to work.  The new company is also pretty light on meetings (they are mostly impromptu and short) and as an engineer, not a director, I don’t have to manage people.  🙂

I suppose that I should also say that this was a very hard decision for me.  I’ve been here for almost 14 years, 6.5 in my current role – my entire adult life.   The university feels like home.  But more than anything else, I’ll miss working with the people I know there.  A lot of folks are more like friends than colleagues.

I’m going to cut this short before I get too sentimental – I still have over 4 weeks to go 🙂

July 7, 2007

Deconstructionists, atheism and religion

Filed under: Personal — cec @ 10:03 pm

Browsing the New York Times website, I ran across the blog of Stanley Fish. Fish, if you’ve never heard of him (lucky you), is an academic star. He is an English professor specializing in deconstruction. In other words, he is not interested in truth; he is only interested in being right by proving that nothing is true.

The blog posts which caught my eye were a series describing Fish’s analysis of three recent books on atheism. Those of Sam Harris, Richard Dawkins and Christopher Hitchen. Sparing you the arguments, Fish concludes in his first post, The Three Atheists, that Harris, Dawkins and Hitchen are not contributing anything new. Unfortunately, he does not come to this conclusion by examining the what the books say, but only by applying some of the key principles of the books to religious arguments that he knows have already been made within the context of religion and then assuming he knows how the authors would respond. This is a neat trick that allows him to suggest that there is nothing new in the books without actually engaging in the arguments the books make.

In his second piece, Atheism and Evidence, Fish attempts to demonstrate that science has no grounds for examining religion, nor does religion have grounds for examining science. He performs this trick by blurring the lines between faith and reason; suggesting that both science and religion are based in faith and noting that religion also strives to sustain itself through reason.

In drawing that conclusion, Fish touches on a subject that has been of long standing interest to me: the phenomenon of morality. Harris and Dawkins both believe that morality is derived from natural selection – there is a genetic basis for our moral codes of conduct. To ridicule this idea that science can stand alone and that morality does not require religion, Fish notes that Harris and Dawkins believe:

It’s just a matter of time before so-called moral phenomena will be brought within the scientific ambit: “There will probably come a time,” Harris declares, “when we achieve a detailed understanding of human happiness, and of ethical judgments themselves, at the level of the brain.” And a bit later, “There is every reason to believe that sustained inquiry in the moral sphere will force convergence of our various belief systems in the way that it has in every other science.”

What gives Harris his confidence? Why does he have “every reason to believe” (a nice turn of phrase)? What are his reasons? What is his evidence?…

Note that Fish pulls a cute rhetorical trick here. He ignores the arguments about morality and genetics. Ignores the fact that there are detailed theories allowing one to predict the extent to which we extend our morality to others in our community. He ignores that these theories also predict non-human altruistic behaviors, which religious theories of morality can not. No, he turns away from behavioral discussions of morality and instead focuses on the area where there are still unknowns: how are these high-level genetic imperatives implemented in the structure of the brain. Where religion says to do good because God says to, and Dawkins says that we do good because our genes (though not necessarily ourselves) are likely to prosper, Fish demands that we tell him how doing good excites certain neurons in the brain to encourage doing good.

Finally, Fish discusses objections raised in his first piece: that scientific theories are falsifiable whereas religions faith is constructed so as not to be.  Fish states that systems can only be falsified within the context of the belief system in which they operate.  So long as any object under discussion is internally self-consistent, it can not be falsified.  Fish goes on to flesh out this argument in his third post.

In Is Religion Man-Made?,  Fish describes how God is defined in the context of religion.  Noting that God exceeds human understanding and is therefore not a subject for examination.  Moreover, says Fish, within the context of religion, God is all-encompassing of creation and how can we examine something of which we are part?  It seems to be a hobby of humanity to construct such internally consistent theories which can not be tested.  Bishop Berkely constructed one regarding the non-existence of matter which no one believed to be true, but could not dispute the internal logic.  Samuel Johnson, kicking a large stone, noted, “I refute it thus.”

Johnson is essentially asserting that while such theories are impossible to disprove, the ultimate judge of their reality is their tangible existence.  It is all well and good to assert a pretty piece of logic as indisputable and therefore true, but that does not make it real.  Reality is the physical universe in which we inhabit.  God may exist as a philosophical construct because the logic of its existence is internally consistent, but that does not mean that there is such a being in reality.  Of course, religions do assert that there is such a being in reality.  Most that assert a God, with the exception of the Deists, believe that it plays an active role in the universe, i.e., God can alter the physical.  Now Fish may think (or assert – I actually doubt that Fish believes any of this) that the existence of God cannot be tested because he is not tangible or because we exist within God, but that’s just silly.  Anything which can affect reality can be tested.  For example, there have been numerous studies that demonstrate that double-blind studies of prayer show no improvement in sick patients.  Cases of healing occur with roughly the same frequency of spontaneous remission.  In short, if miracles reflected in a change in reality are the proof of God, then they fall short.  That is not to say that a belief in God may not change people.  That is not to say that praying will not help you to come to grips with tragedy; only that you would be hard pressed to attribute these to a real, tangible God as opposed to an abstract, conceptual God.

Coming back around to the start of this post, I suppose that I should really just learn not to read deconstructionists.  On the other hand, I did comply with the burden placed on me from the title of Fish’s blog, I did “Think Again”  – I just happened to think that Fish is full of it.  🙂

July 4, 2007

Happy July 4th

Filed under: Cooking,Personal — cec @ 10:04 pm

I hope everyone had a good 4th of July and if you had the day off, you enjoyed it.

I spent my day doing a little of this and a little of that. I picked up a low water use irrigation system that I’ve run to the flowers and the blueberry bushes. I’ll need a few hundred more feet of pipe to run it out to all of the trees, but this is a good start.

Inspired by hsarik, I made some beer and cheese bread. We used that to make veggie-sausage poboys. That, some onion rings and some fruit made for a great holiday dinner.

Finally, I may have a new favorite song: “Future Soon” by Jonathan Coulton. How can you not like a song featuring love, lasers and robot wars whose chorus contains the lines:

And I won’t always be this way
When the things that make me weak and strange get engineered away

Okay, I’m a bit of a nerd

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